Sunday, August 29, 2010

Absence...

So, if absence makes the heart grow fonder, why do I feel such reluctance to post an update on my little blog here? Probably because I feel like I have a storm raging inside of me and I don't want to let it out. Sometimes I feel as if I am held together by duct tape and at any moment a piece will start to fray and my insides will start spilling out. Yikes, I don't know why I got so grim there. I DID mean that in a non-literal, non-horror/sci-fi film way. I'm sure most of you can probably relate though. I tend to keep things bottled up…things that make me stressed, nervous, happy, sad…etc. Sometimes that stuff kind of builds up and then I have no choice but to divulge. It’s housekeeping of sorts. I need to let my feelings out in order to keep track of them…but sometimes I just really hate to do it. Carrying around that baggage makes me feel secure and vulnerable all at once.

Well, since this isn’t a couch and you aren’t my shrink, I guess I’ll quit psychoanalyzing myself now. Sorry for that and so sorry that I have been so absent from this blog. Though, I’m not sure who I’m actually apologizing to.

Obviously, since it has been such a long time, there are a lot of new things going on in my life. School is a mainstay. I did really well in the spring semester and I felt like I was on top of the world. Then I had a lackluster summer semester and now I feel a bit dumpy:-( But now it is a new semester with a clean slate and I have my sites set high! I have just one more semester to go and I will be able to hang that piece of paper on my wall! By the way, you are all invited to my celebratory party when I finally do throw my cap in the air. On a side note, I will say that I am a glutton for punishment and I do plan to head right back to school next fall for my MBA. No rest for the weary, as I always like to say…gotta love those clichés.

I do have entirely too much going on right now, with school, work, a whole bunch of extracurriculars, and the family of course. The family reference actually includes five more people though, since my sister and her kids are staying with me for a while. Let’s just say, it’s a bit crowded at my house right now! Further proof of what a wonderful husband I have! They’re my family so it goes without saying that I will always want to help them. But as far as he goes, I think it’s a big deal for him to be willing to sacrifice so much.

Colten is loving having his cousins around to play with, especially the youngest who’s three. They are two little partners in crime, and whatever one does, so follows the other. It is incredibly cute and annoying all at the same time, lol.

As far as my Colten update, I can’t believe he will already be two next month! He’s such a big boy now. He’s talking so much, saying complete sentences and all. He knows all his animals and animal sounds. He even does the arm movements when he reports that ducks say “quack, quack.” He knows hands, feet, head, nose, eyes, mouth, teeth, hair, belly…etc. He loves to brush his teeth, by the way. And…drum roll please…he is tee-teeing in the potty (lol, forgive the mom-speak.) He is even usually the one requesting to go to the potty. Of course, any of you who have ever potty-trained know how exciting but also cumbersome that can be...he's got to wipe, he's got to flush the toilet, he's got to wash his hands. You know, he's a toddler, so he's got to do everything;-) So, now we are just working on going to the potty every time. I am so excited at the prospect of getting rid of those diaper expenses!!

Wow, so I know that was a lot, but I have to admit, I do feel better having divulged:)
"Life isn't about waiting for the storms to pass...it's about learning how to dance in the rain." -Vivian Greene
"Success is not final, Failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." -Sir Winston Churchill