Sunday, July 31, 2011

Pardon Me While I Quibble

I have just gone on an enlightening round about to some of my favorite blogs of yore and it has left me wondering why I stopped blogging. I do know the answer though. There are actually several. They all focus on the fact that I've had a lot going on. But the truth is, when someone tells you "...I've had a lot going on," it's just their kind way of telling you that other things have happened and I've forgotten about you or whatever it was I was supposed to do for you. Harsh, but almost always, at least partially true. Trust me, I know these things. How? You ask. Well, I don't know. But don't tell me that I'm the only one who feels this way.

Sure, we don't set out to forget about the people or the things we care about, but it still happens. For me, I go through a routine shutdown period. Whenever life gets a little hectic, I withdraw a little. It's kind of like when the power is lost at a hospital. The generators kick in, but they only power up the essential items. Well, I do this emotionally. And I know it would be best if I didn't shut out my friends when I needed them most, but I do. So, this perpetuates my inability to stay connected. Just take a look at my track record.

But enough about all that, and to use an infamous moniker of a favorite professor of mine… “Hopping back off the rabbit trail…” I don’t know why I always try to treat blog entries like a counseling session. I guess I always feel the desire to divulge about my long absences from writing, but I haven’t the slightest clue why. Perhaps I don’t feel that I have anything more interesting to say. Although, I'm pretty sure I could find lots to talk about in my life right now. Or even come up with some brilliant randomness sure to entertain. But I can’t get to the quippy day to day stories I prefer until I quibble about my absence. So, there it is.
"Life isn't about waiting for the storms to pass...it's about learning how to dance in the rain." -Vivian Greene
"Success is not final, Failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." -Sir Winston Churchill