Thoughts for the day:

I want a thocky keyboard. I watched a TikTok video of someone posting that they were about to start working from home and asked for tips. In the comments, most people talked about drawing a boundary between work and home, including not working in pajamas. Although, I liked one reply that said, "hear me out…daytime pajamas, and nighttime pajamas" or something to that effect. That made me laugh and want to get more pajamas. I stopped myself from buying some yesterday at Marshall's, but I was severely tempted. I'm really trying to limit my passing obsessions to just one or two and allocate my funds accordingly. Which returns us to the topic at hand, work from home must-haves. One particular poster mentioned a good thocky keyboard, or at least that is where the post and the comment thread led me to…searching the best buttery, thocky keyboards. Also, I had never heard the term thocky before that post either. Now I have used it 4 times in this paragraph alone. I can easily count because they are all the words with red squiggly lines beneath them. Spell check really needs to get with the times. Here's another side thought, that is also on the topic. I got my nails done yesterday. They were previously way too long, and I couldn't type very fast because of that. I am not an experienced long-nail typer. So, now, as I type this, I am encouraged by how much faster I am at typing. I'm also thinking I may need to revive my blog. However, I'm thinking I should only do that if it is stream of thought nonsense just like this. A bunch of rambling that I anticipate no one, but me-in-the-future, ever stumbling upon and reading. It's like the modern-day version of a message in a bottle. This definitely follows a common ADHD thread though. One that I am  currently trying to deal with. I'm trying to encapsulate and steer my misaligned random desires into a curated outcome. Instead of letting them yank me to and fro (rude, spell check, fro is definitely a word), instead of letting them make me feel bad about myself for not seeing them through, instead of forgetting them only to remember them while trying to go to bed or like right now, letting them cause me to spiral and obsess instead of doing the thing I should be doing…I would like to let them guide me. I would like to harness them like a wave and ride them to their natural conclusion. Yes, they would still most likely amount to a short-lived ADHD obsession, but one that was LIVED. One that brought joy and excitement to that time. I keep going back and re-reading what I have written to remember where I was even going in the first place. This is my nature. I can't help it. However, I was actually trying to write with no clear objective at all. Except that I wanted to capture what my passing desires were, so that I could try to get to the heart of my actual desires. I was interested in revamping my WFH accessories because I want to feel the wonderment and the excitement that working from home once brought me. Of course, working from home is not new to me anymore and those feelings have long worn off. I do thank God from time to time for the blessing of it and this life He has given me. Can't I be truly grateful and still feel the mundanity of life? How do I stop chasing the new? How do I find my desires and gather them up and live them, not just let them pile up in the corner with those of the past? I don't know the answer to any of those questions. But I will continue to try to live in grace and joy and gratefulness, and in the present! I have a sign right above my desk that says, "How great would life be if we lived a little of it every day?" That is what I am after. So, here I am reminding myself that it doesn't take buying new things to do that. But it is okay to formulate passions from desires. Those most certainly deserve investment, don't they? Also, I just decided to upload this to my blog, since I do already have one of those. I'm not even going to go back and remove my run-on sentences or make paragraphs to make reading this more appealing. I also think I might send the link to my family. So much for lost obscurity. But I do have to say, I have actually liked writing for a long time now. Dare I say it is a passion of mine?